Independence

Good morning!

I realized I haven't sat down in a while to tell all of you a good story.  I've been racking my brain, trying to think of all the things that make me feel better about myself and which of those might help some of you.

So,

STORY TIME!!!

Ever since I can remember, I've had this longing to be in a romantic relationship. I don't know where it came from or why I put romance on this pedestal, but it's always been there. (I mean, think about it, this is only the 3rd story I've told you and the 3rd time I've mentioned relationships.) My inability to find someone made me so depressed from a very young age. Imagine, a 10 year-old having a "mid-life crisis" because she's single. That was me. It got to the point where I obsessed over it all the time and it was my main goal in life. I didn't realize until I was 17, not long before my Senior year of high school started, that my obsession over being in a relationship would probably lead to having a lot of anxiety while I was in one. I did a lot of thinking and discovered how unhappy I was with the people I surrounded myself with. Most of my friends throughout my life were complete jerks and didn't respect me. So, when the school year started, I made a point of being by myself as much as possible. I was sick of wasting my time on people who made me unhappy. Of course, I regularly had to remind myself that during this time, it was my own choice to be alone, and that if I wanted to sit with people at lunchtime, I could. This was about me, though. I needed to become more dependent on myself to be happy rather than counting on everyone else. And relating this back to relationships, if I couldn't be happy alone, I couldn't truly be happy with someone else. It would be a terrible burden for anyone to be the sole source of someone else's happiness.

I like how people always looked at me with pity when I sat alone in my classes, as if I wasn't normal.  Of course, those were the very people I was avoiding.

Eventually, though, I learned to keep myself great company and had much fewer superficial conversations. Honestly, people who truly spend most of their time criticising others lead very depressing lives. I know because I was one of them. My old friends loved to gossip about everyone else, and I joined in so I could have a little of the attention for myself. It wasn't worth it.

Sometimes, it's the people in our lives who make us unhappy, and sometimes they make us forget who we really are. You can shape your life however you want to, you just have to know yourself first.

Until Next Time!
Happy Living!

Blog or No Blog?!

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Good night everyone, and as always- Happy Living!

Jenna Marbles?!

So I've been watching tons of Jenna Marbles videos lately (because I don't have tons of homework or studying to be doing) and I came across this one. I thought it was funny and figured I would share it with you guys :) I'm also going to share another one of hers about junk food, because it pretty much describes me the last few weeks.

Healthy Food!

So last night my dad decided he wanted us to finally make the forbidden rice that he bought months ago. So I pulled out my computer and started looking for recipes. I came across a delicious looking recipe that falls under the "healthy" category. It has vegetables, the rice is the whole grain, all you need is your own protein and a fruit for dessert!
The interesting thing about this recipe is that I found it on another Blogger! Go visit areluctantfoodie's blog and try some of the recipes!
Here's the direct link to the forbidden rice recipe: http://areluctantfoodie.blogspot.com/2012/02/forbidden-black-rice-with-scallions-and.html
I was thinking of pairing it with Scallops, and fresh strawberries or baked apples for dessert!

Sincerely,

Catherine

Here it is! Only a week late, but it's finally done! This is just an intro video, we will be posting more in depth things later. If anyone has recipes they want to share with us, post the link/ recipe in a comment and we'll post it!

Letters to the Soul

Good evening! I'm certain that Catherine is working very diligently right now on our newest video concerning physical health. And, I'm SURE you've missed me, so I thought it might be a good idea to talk about more of the ways I manage to keep myself sane. So yes, again it is...

Story Time!  

I was really depressed for a while, and I felt pretty lost like I had no direction in life and no conception of who I was or wanted to be. One night, I found a short little note I'd written to my "future self" about a year ago, a small scrap of paper I carried around in one of my wallet slots. It wasn't much- "

"J'espere que dans le futur tu parles encore le francais. (I hope that in the future, you still speak French.)  You've made it this far. You're not yet dead... Just keep doing what you do. Oh my God, I bet you have a boyfriend now. I'm so happy for you lol. See you soon"

I read it just a couple weeks after my boyfriend broke up with me. I guess I've always had a way of being inconsiderate of my future self, (like not packing myself a lunch because I don't "feel like it,") and this is by far my favourite. That night was one of my worst, but that letter made me feel so much better for some odd reason. I couldn't stop laughing at how wonderfully awful it was.

It inspired me to write a new one to myself that I could read the next time I became unbearably upset. In it, I reminded my future self of how intelligent and talented I am, and how happy I have made the people around me. I told myself that I have a family that loves and cares about me, and that though pain is natural and expected, I have the power to overcome it. I wrote a few more letters after that when I became sad, explaining why I felt the way I did and why I should be happy in life.

My letters have brought me back up every time I've felt unhappy or someone said something hurtful to me. For example, last week in class, when I spoke up about a common misunderstanding everyone had, my classmates didn't seem to care at all about what I had to say, and a few even laughed at me. I was really hurt. I mean, who does that? It sounds like it's from some sort of badly written film about bullying and teen angst. I closed my eyes and took a moment to calm down, then read my latest message to myself. There's something so infinitely comforting about reading "I love you" when it's from someone close to you, especially yourself.

Well, I best be off! My Economics homework awaits.

Until next time, happy living!

Hey Everybody! So I was swamped at work this week, and the video never got finished :( I will have it up by Tuesday or Wednesday, though I had hoped to have had it done last week. Sorry for the delay!

Sincerely,
Catherine